A Thousand Feelings
I am feeling a thousand feelings. Thinking a thousand thoughts. I don’t even know where I should start. I feel like a total fool right now. I see how big and tough I acted last time only to realize that I am weak. Just putting up a strong front back then didn’t at all improve my condition right now. I have so much to talk about. But I do not know which pieces go where. I'm trying so hard to be an idol but I’m the one who’s crashing down. Facing issues from different angles is way harder than I thought. What am I trying to do? What do I want for myself? It’s funny how I act like I’ve got so many connections when all I’m left with is none. I regretted feeling certain feelings cause certainly, I don’t even know why I should feel likewise. Do I even ought to? Ultimately, some of you showed a different colour. But honestly, that doesn’t stop me at all. What stops me is the fact that I’m all in this alone. I used to think that I could survive, but tonight just proved everything. Now how do I treat every individual right? I can’t. Do right to one, it’s wrong to another. Do right to another, it’s wrong to one. So when all the people just leave their footsteps behind, were they happy then? I wonder what it takes for me to achieve equality. Thus, it got me thinking, am I true to what I feel, to what we share? Or do I do all this just for a specific reason? At the same time, everything seems to only conclude that I might have been bringing a burden instead. So what does it leave me with now? I am getting more confused already. The only thing that I’ll have to do is ask myself, how do I fix every single thing then? Because everything seemed to be interlinked.